Published March 10, 2015 by

I’ve added a few more dates on the tour section of my website. And thanks to everyone who has been ordering my Amazon recommendations from the new shop section! I hope you have been loving everything :)





Published February 22, 2015 by

‘You can drive the devil out of your garden but you will find him again in the garden of your son.’

– Johann Heinrich Pestalozzi

Dealing with it all. Head on.

Today I had the thought that maybe I should get an office job and take up a sport. Something not too hard that I can see progress in and maintain my body with. A running group. Develop a routine. Look forward to 2 weeks of vacation a year. Start watching TV. Go shopping more often.

It was just a fleeting fancy of simple life. A person who has dimmed their light and gone underground. Hiding in plain sight.

A fantasy. But a comforting one on days like these.



Published January 29, 2015 by

I used to think that only big time YouTubers like Trisha Paytas could make money on YouTube. Current statistics show that the money Trisha Paytas makes is between $5000 and $76,000 a month! And those stats might actually be low and also do not include endorsements and product placement fees.

But you don’t have to be as famous as her to start cashing in. Anyone can make money on YouTube!

Click to check out my ebook, How to Make Money on YouTube: Get more views, get more subscribers and get paid!

Do you think you need thousands of followers and millions of views before you start making money on YouTube? (Not true! I had less than 4000 subscribers when the checks started rolling in every month)

The book more than pays for itself within 6 months if you follow the formula!

I used to have to work at the mall  full time for 2 weeks to earn what I now make on YouTube for talking about what I love and putting in less than 10 hours of work a month.
Want to be heard, make a difference and make a solid income on YouTube but you’re not sure where to start?
Maybe you’re afraid no one will watch your videos, you’ll make a fool of yourself or just end up wasting your time in yet another useless project.
You want good looking videos but maybe you can’t afford expensive equipment and have no idea how to use a video editing program.

Maybe you’re sick and tired of competing for likes on Facebook and have heard about how YouTube gets you a targeted audience and pays you for it but you’re not sure where to start..

My ebook HOW TO MAKE MONEY ON YOUTUBE: GET MORE VIEWS, GET MORE SUBSCRIBERS AND GET PAID is a first hand account of how I established a regular, part time income on YouTube in 6 months.

What you will get in this 74 page instruction book:
– Info on how to edit your videos for free
– Introduction to video editing and the 4 main things you need to learn (only 4- that’s it!)
– Detailed teachings on how to get YouTube to promote your videos for you (very sneaky!)
– Ways to use the equipment you likely already have at home to make great looking videos
– Advice on how to look good and speak well on camera
– The specific things you need to do to get your videos seen and start building traffic
– How the Youtube payment system works
– How to be one of the top earners on YouTube (hint: everyone is paid a different amount!)
– How to monetize your videos for maximum payout
– and much much more!

It also includes personal stories of the mistakes that I made when I first signed up, such as the BIGGEST MISTAKE most beginner YouTubers make that lost me  thousands of dollars in ad revenue.

All of this to help you get more clients, sales, views and subscribers so that you can
 – Stop worrying about bills, saving or retirement
– Say bye bye to your boss, long commutes for work & only 30 min breaks … my story
-Spend more time with family and friends
-Share your passion and talents with an international audience
– Start being seen as an expert in your field of interest


Sigh. It pained me to write this. But, ok….. so maybe you don’t want to start small. Here are some heavy hitting ways to get lots of views fast (warning: not for the faint of heart..) In this YouTube CHEATS bonus booklet, I’ll teach you how to play dirty. Hopefully, you only want to know for curiosity’s sake. Remember to only use your powers for good!

I’ll add this in for free as a thankyou bonus to you!

Who is this is for?
Complete YouTube newbies
Intermediate level YouTubers looking to improve their channel, get more subscribers and views and make more money
Anyone looking to promote themselves online, provide value, build an email list, get more clients and sell MORE!


 PLEASE NOTE. This program is NOT for you if:

1) You’re looking to “get rich quick”
I offer a tried and true plan to start building yourself a sustainable part time income online that will grow to a full time income over time, with effort. It took me four months to get a paycheck, but I had no idea what I was doing at the time! With this guidance, hopefully you’ll get yours even faster but in this field there are no guarantees.

2) You aren’t passionate about anything
If there is nothing that lights you up inside, what do you have to share? There is a place for everyone on youtube and a niche for everything! So whether it’s celebrity gossip that makes you tick, antiques, history, sharing your life stories, making a funny face on camera every day for a year, singing well, dancing badly or teaching anything that makes you giggle with glee, that will work!

3) You have a thin skin or are easily discouraged
The youtube journey is a rollercoaster ride. One week, you could have a max 14 views on your videos and the next you could have thousands and watch your paycheck skyrocket! The opposite could also happen, through no fault of your own and there’s nothing you can do about it. Both have happened to me. However, once you get going, have a subscriber base and post quality videos regularly, your paychecks are usually somewhat predictable, growing every month. Until then, you have to both not let success get to your head andnot feel all hope is lost if things take a downward turn for a while.

4) You don’t have basic computer skills or you don’t read and understand English well
You need to understand the basic concepts of say, right clicking, windows, click and drag. And you should be able to read, write and understand English to at least a middle school level. The book tells you what to do but you need to be able to follow basic instructions on Youtube yourself and conduct internet searches if you need further clarification.

5) You are not willing to make mistakes
The most successful YouTube channels show videos that get better in quality over time. Can you accept that you might fumble a bit, not have perfect lighting, forget a point or two in your first uploads? You need to have the courage to press the ‘publish’ button on something that might not be absolutely perfect. It will NEVER be perfect. You will NEVER feel ready. Never! Trust me! If you are considering that you would like to make YouTube videos, you are ready NOW. Not once you get your hair cut, or a thousand more twitter followers or finish reading whatever book. Now.

Check it out here:


Published January 28, 2015 by

I always remember. But I stopped trying to contact him about it when he never returned my calls or texts or facebook messages, smoke signals, carrier pigeons etc.

I have so many mixed feelings with him but the good ones are very good. I remember we used to go see dollar movies together and make fun of the other patrons. He also used to do an impression of our other brother eating chips that I am shaking with laughter over even now typing this. His sense of humour was just beyond… I can’t even.

He was a smart, sweet kid that had it even harder than I did, I think.

I behaved with him the way that I criticized a relative for behaving with me: we had a huge blowout that highlighted all the deep issues in our relationship and I never apologized or tried to rectify the situation, just waited for time to pass and then tried to act like everything was cool.

No one deserves to be treated like that.

All members of our family were highly traumatized individuals that just clashed against each other constantly, completely devoid of resources to contain our emotions and insight as to where they were really coming from.

It is very hard for me to write or think about him. We have been through so much. I have cried a lot over my new realization of my treatment of him. He was a projection of my inner child that I sometimes either loved or hated so much. His existence was painful to me, like mine was to my mother.

Anyway, I think he is turning 25. Wow. I hope all is well with him. And despite the fact that every therapist assures me I am not to blame and that any traumatized child stuck parenting another traumatized child would have acted the same way, I still hope I can make it up to him some day.



Published January 24, 2015 by


I’ll be back in LA as of Feb 3… yay! I noticed that my viewership in that area is increasing so I thought I’d mention it here if anyone is interested in meeting up, interviews etc.

Things are always super busy when I am there but I can usually be found chowing on I AM HUMBLE at Cafe Gratitude in Venice or hydrating my life away at Moon Juice.

Let’s hug it out! ♥

And remember to keep an eye on the tour section of my website to see if I am headed to your town!



Published December 23, 2014 by

UPDATE: AAAGH the software refuses to work! I had a great show lined up. Maybe I’ll make itnto a video or resched for new years day! Happy holidays for now everyone! xo

I’m having a live hangout on my YouTube channel on the evening of Christmas day! Join me for a few laughs, surprises, reminiscing and inspiration for the new year!

It starts at 9pm mountain time (that is 8 on the west coast and 11 on the east coast). Message if you have any questions about anything you’d like me to answer on air.

Hope to see you there!